yodaddy2011

I never could let go of you, now you've found someone else and you got yourself pregnant and I'm left to be you're friend and the godfather of that baby. I sit here alone, nobody to call my own and nobody to care and there you sit with a man and a baby on the way. What i don't get is why it's still affecting me like this. I have so many mixed emotions, she hurt me so much yet i still thought she would be the mother of my children, my wife. I truely thought she was the one, my soul mate, my one true love but now i know in my head that that wasn't true but in my heart I can't stop the emotions attached to our relationship. I want her to believe

I'm split between what i love to and the person in this world i love more than anything. My dreams are pulling me westward and my heart is pulling me eastward. This is one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make in my life. I know its stupid for me to go back i would  just fall into Old Patterns Marry Haley work a dead end job and have kids and my dreams would die upon my return to Kingwood, But i feel like if i don't go back then my  heart will never be whole again. I'm literally crying over this like i don't know what to do my whole life was that town. everything good, bad, and amazing happened in that town it will always be my home,

so its been a long time since i been on here. well IM in a really reflective stage in my life I'm single and its given me time to find myself. alsoi think im the only one who is obsessed with how to love by lil wayne. its like the most amazing song ever. so yea ttyl